Wednesday, October 18, 2006 @8:20 PM
The Beautiful Letdown
Skipped school today, was fcuk tired :( Miss T called and asked all the usual lame questions. How lame can she get? But I guessed she knows why aren't we in school cause she is ain't stupid. Meeting cousin later for our date. It was a last minute decision but oh wells..Good day readers! :)How fcuking random can I get? I feeling like some dorkshit.Wells, I don't whats wrong with me nowadays. Its been 3 days and I am still feeling shit, this shouldn't have happened. And all the awkwardness wouldn't have a role to play. Blame it on your stupidity and inquisitive mind. Now, all I hope for is that we could go back to what we used to be or maybe even start afresh? I hate myself for being in such a stupid state where nothing is progressing. For goodness sake, I did make an effort to break the "COLD" ice. But I guess it doesn't make a difference. Fcuk it then. Maybe I'm letting time to play a role of a mediator. By helping me to do what i think it should do. I am tired of trying so hard and there the other party is not giving a fcuk damn. This can be a disappointing letdown but I'm caring less. Maybe I am not the cut for being in a relationship though it could be sweet at times. But on the other hand, being in a relationship is just a FUCKING status for it where sometimes couples can be fighting/ quarrelling their big arse off. So being in one or not doesn't make a difference. I reckon such predicament would arise and there it came true. How deceiving can it get? So in conclusion, I'm staying as a hardcore single. I swear though I know i am not supposed to. I am not going to give a fuck care to anything or anyone. And lastly, the duration and the process of waiting for someone doesn't matter at all. Are you plain foolish or just being such a devoted arse? I'm not trying to be mean or crude with my words.. But do u think she will go back to you especially when you're younger than her? The times where she busted you like fcuk already shows how much u stands in her heart. Come on, you deserve better. Its just a matter of time and patience. Thats it~
ClapBangKiss ♥